*TW* suicidal thinking

Last year I went through a lot of medical trauma, got put on many different drugs which made me incredibly suicidal and worsened my condition severely.

I saw my T regularly throughout but she was away during the most painful period, and I was almost catatonic or psychotic for periods throughout, so I couldn't express my state of mind.

I wrote a ten page piece about my experience, mostly about the drugs, hospital, and my own strength. T kept going away so I wasn't able to give her the writing until last session. I'm just wondering if I did the right thing. She suggested if I wasn't comfortable giving her the writing I could keep it and read from it during the next session. But at the end of the session I just wanted to get the piece out of my head/bag, so I gave it to her and asked her to read it just before next session. I still have the opportunity to ask her not to read it and instead read from it myself next session. Of course, the piece is not out of my head - it's all I've been thinking about since I handed it to her.


Have any of you given your T something you've written? Do you think it's better to have T read it beforehand or read from it during the session? Any experiences whatsoever of T reading something you've written I would love to hear!