I am an alcoholic in recovery and have been sober for 6 years. I urge you to go inpatient somewhere for medical detox. Alcohol w/d is one of the only substances that can kill you while quitting it. Amy Winehouse died because of it. It doesnt matter how much or how long you have been drinking. The physical effects of w/d are lethal. I use AA and stopped on my own which was brutal and stupid. I thought I would die. And the only reason I believe I did not have seizures was because I was on Lamictal for bipolar. I would love to share with you something more nuanced about quitting but right now my concern is a safe medical detox for you.