Good question. After what I confessed to L on Thursday, while she didn't say I was bad or wrong and acted accepting as usual, I was left with the feeling that I did something wrong that I need to be absolved of because she also insinuated that I am not serious about my process because of it. I'm not mad or upset with her who knows maybe I'm not as serious as I think I am because I'm not willing to sit there in front of her and try to pretend I don't feel, which she basically suggested by saying "we're both adults here." I think I know myself pretty darn well to be able to realize and tell her what I did.