I'm so sorry you're struggling, Haunted Rain It must be very hard for you. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. You're definitely not alone on this, as this thread has already shown. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your apathy, if you haven't already. I'm so sorry, I wish I've had more advice to give to you. Just try to engage in as many activites as possible. I know it's hard when you have apathy, but give it a try if you can. Perhaps you could discover some new hobbies. Try to keep an healthy lifestyle. Eat well, try to sleep, ecc. I'm so sorry you don't have a support system IRL. Remember that we're here for you fi you need it. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say. We care about you. Keep writing here if it helps. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. I'm here for you as well if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this