You’re right, depression doesn’t last long for me. Last time it was only ten days. But every other time it doesn’t end until something drastic happens so, I don’t know. I know I at least have RS to help me this time instead of trying to do it all alone so that should help.

I’m having passive suicidal thoughts. The same thoughts I always get.


I’m not disturbed by these thoughts because I know it’s just part of my depression package. It’s when they become active, that’s when there’s an issue. And we are a long way from that, at least I hope.

I found some cartridges for my vape that have nicotine in them so I hope I will feel better soon. I may have to face the fact that I may not be nicotine free for a long time. I can switch to lozenges if the vape is too expensive.

Sigh. Hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow.