Today I coped how I usually do,distraction, I felt rock bottom,so took myself to divert attention away from myself by watching a film.It was a film about a lad undergoing christian gay conversion therapy so it was very serious and reminded me of my battle with my own sexuality and being bisexual I was unable to express or act on my desires for either sex.I spent most of my youth and twenties and thirties confused about my sexuality and worried about STD's so abstained.Yeah so the film made me cry.I saw the film and hung around the cafe,had a coffee and felt like ****.I am going through the motions of living an existence whether you call that coping or not I don't know.I am getting my eating habits under control and losing weight so something is going right,but that can be a struggle also.