sunny, I'm sorry you're feeling depressed

A couple of things came to mind as I was reading your post. I wonder if, in your worries, you feel the meeting may not be enough to protect your kids from the pornography. And maybe thinking back to the times you were forced to be exposed to it while your H was incosiderate and unresponsive to your forced exposure is your worry that your kids will be put in that same scenario.

It sounds like your depression about this is something to explore more. Is it repressed anger? Helplessness? Or even just one thing too many at the moment, the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back; your depression is a way of saying this is all so overwhelming; so much to do, so many concerns, so many involved, such a long process.

Perhaps you need some 'sunny' time.