sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....

interesting session with the body memory massage T.....

yeppers... an interesting ... 90 minutes....

my alters.... had alot to say to their abusers... never would have thought that "I" could actually ever in my lifetime.. have the courage to tell my abusers to leave me alone.. and what they could do with themsleves..

my very little 5 year old.. told my dad... to "put his xxxxx" away.. and she never wanted to see it again... it was yuckie.. yckie...

and my 12 and 14 year olds... told their pedophile.. how much he hurt them by sodimizing them.. and that they hated him for telling them.. that was "normal" sex.... that he had no right to make him think that he loved them.. that he had no right to tell them.. if anyone found out.. that they would be responsible.. for ruining his life..

and my 52 year old and my 34 year old.. told my ex-husband.. that his.. you know what.. was going in the gabage disposal.. and that he had no right to make them sleep on the floor.. if they didn't have sex with him.. yepper a cold floor.. no pillow.. and no blanket...

so.. the deep.. deep pain has eased in my tummy... not sure if this will help my ED...