Thanks Brian, BalishBun, mckell, Soliaree, and ECHOES. I really appreciate your support.

I think all the talk of pornography and my recalling those awful memories of trying to talk to him while he watched porn, brought back to mind the awful, trapped and hopeless feelings of being stuck in a miserable marriage. And during that time I was depressed, so maybe my memories just brought back my feelings from back then too. Things have been better since he moved out. It's like the porn talk was a trigger for bringing back all the associated feelings of the time.

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I would be very outraged if my husband did that.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">mckell, I'm not very good at doing outrage. I admire you.

Boredom: I think I was drifting away. I seemed not engaged in the conversation, not very attentive. Mind kept wandering. The discussion could not hold me. Or maybe it forced me away.

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I wish I could invite you out for a beer.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Thank you. Me too! Do you live near me?

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Sunrise, how do you really feel about his viewing porn while you were trying to talk with him?

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">Sad, hopeless, depressed, frustrated, trapped, disrespected, angry, scared (for my kids).

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I wonder if, in your worries, you feel the meeting may not be enough to protect your kids from the pornography.

</div></font></blockquote><font class="post">ECHOES, on one level, I think that he still doesn't get it. One comment he made was that kids can access this stuff themselves on the Internet, so what does it matter if they see it on his computer? T called him on that.

I wish I was seeing my T soon. I need him.