I keep fighting. It may not be visible to others but I am. I am still an avoidant, I can't keep with my homework at therapy, but I am fighting.
My tutor at my residency doesn't like something I do, I am trying to change my thoughts, maybe It doesn't make me a bad person, maybe she doesn't hold the definition of right and wrong.

With dissociation every homework is harder. But I am still here trying to convince myself that is ok and norma to feel bad and embarased, and that I should allow myself to feel.