((( Rainbowzz ))) That is so exciting that you like your new pdoc from the start! She sounds like a very comfortable person herself and to be with.

I just really want to encourage you to tell her about your history of drug and alcohol use. (me too). It is your past and it's not an uncommon symptom of Borderlines. (me too). I do understand your worry that someone might use that to decide you can't be trusted with some meds but be sure to stress that this was in your past and give examples of meds you've taken without abusing since you don't do that anymore. I was lucky my doc trusted me with Xanax. He prescribed it "as needed" and the 3 month supply lasted me 6 months so he knew it was okay to give me more.

Rainbowzz it won't taint her view of you but rather it will paint her a clearer picture. I understand your concern. Is she providing therapy too? I was just thinking that so much of therapy is speaking about the things that make us not 'look good' and yet how good it feels to get it out.

Aww, I think it will be fun taking the baby with you next time!