This past weekend my friend visited, and we went to an event, bowling and out to a couple of meals. Way more than I should have spent, but it's not every day my friend visits. I felt off at times and had some weird anxiety moments during the event, but overall it was still good to spend time together and I did manage to have some fun. This is a friend who helped me out a lot this past year when I was in a dark place. He knows how much I have struggled. Despite that, he keeps saying he doesn't think I have bipolar. Not that he is a doctor, but it still made me pause because he does have bipolar. I already doubt I have it sometimes, maybe most of the time? It kind of made me feel like an impostor.

Work got a little stressful because a project of mine involves interviewing people, and some people are telling me they are unhappy with the project design. It is not all my fault, because I based it off of group decisions, but since I am the lead I still feel silly about it. My therapist and I discussed recently how I can feel overly responsible for things, something that probably goes back to when I was a child, so I am trying to put things in perspective and be responsible without totally blaming myself.