Hello everyone and a very unhappy Monday to everyone. Yes I am in a mood. My Monday officially sucks some serious suck. Left early from work; you know something has bothered me when I decide to leave work early. Like when is the last time you all heard that I left work early. I mean sure I've had doctor's appointments and have left like at most 30 minutes early to make it to the dentist or Psych on time, but I seriously left work at like 3 when my usual day is 5.

I just couldn't take it; my pharmacy called me and dropped a bomb that no one stable wants to hear that apparently my Buspar is on a Nationwide back order and only one company has any and they only make the 7.5 of it. I need my tens which I take three times a day. I feel like Gollum I want my precious but I cannot have my precious. I have called pretty much every single pharmacy within a three hour distance of me. You know you love a medication and that it works when you are willing to drive three hours to get the medication. It keeps me stable and actually helps the anxiety feelings. Granted my T, Psych, Cardiologist, and family doc think that my anxiety might not be so much anxiety but rather me being Hypersensitive to Adrenaline; so again I'm a Zebra and confuse everyone. I had three PA's; a family doc; and a Cardiologist in the living room trying to decide what to do about this situation.

I know I act mature and all that but tonight I just want to throw a fit; because something like this always freaking happens to me. I get maybe a week reprise before something goes wrong. Here lately it's been my Heart Medication and now it's suddenly no pharmacy has the one thing that has helped kept me in check to the point I can work. When I heard that I may not see it or have any for a while; the anxiety came back. Like look she just got her life in check; let's ruin it and her happiness. Hey look she even has a good relationship.

I'm just so annoyed tonight; do I try something different like a straight up depression medication get of the Seroquel trust G enough to let him overhaul my medication to keep the anxiety at bay; or do I go down to two pills and try to extend my at best week left of Buspar. Why did this happen to before Valentine's Day? Oh well I guess this what I get.

Hugs to everyone