I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel much better today, like normal. I don’t know if it was just that I had a day off to recover or that the depression just passed. I’m glad it has though. It was only a week this time, that bodes well for me. Maybe I won’t get terrible unending depressions anymore. I’m supposed to see my pdoc today but I don’t know if I’ll be able to make it. The ice was supposed to change over to rain but I can still hear it icing on my window. I might call and reschedule. But then I’m not sure I’d get my depakote in time. I’m not sure. I don’t want to drive in the ice though.

I overdrafted my bank account for the first time since my husband died. I really have to be more careful with my money. I had money in my savings to transfer so it wasn’t that bad but still. I spent too much money on food. That’s what happens when I get depressed, I can’t get the energy to cook so I just buy food. I feel terrible about spending so much. I didn’t want to take money from my savings because I’m hoping to save enough for a house someday. I get paid from the state tomorrow and my regular paycheck on Friday so I won’t be out of money for too long.

But yeah, happy to be feeling better. Hope I can get my script for depakote and haldol before I run out.