Hi guys:
Thank you for the support but I cancelled the interview. It was a tough choice but this was why.

1. Previously I had gone to one of these interviews. Similar to this it was BRUTAL to get the time off. I told everyone about the interview and it was still BRUTAL to get time off. I realize now I am not able to do well in an interview when I am burdened by the tentacles of my current job - I can feel myself more worried about my current job. The last interview I went in and it was well, useless. Stupid questions. They had no interest at all - I felt -- and I wasn't the most prepared. I remember that day vowing to never do that again. Of course, over time you forget about it.

2. On the internet there is a ton of bad things about this workplace. I suspect that this would be jumping from the frying pan into the fire. I am deeply suspicious that I withdrew this application on the online portal 2 weeks before they sent me an e-mail for an interview. To me that is not a good sign.

3. Often, far too often, when I tell people at work about it.. sometimes they lose their minds. This always concerns me. My friend at work has not shut up about it since I told her. There are two issues with this.. in my experience (1) when you don't get the job they blame you and (2) I just cannot trust that she will not blab. I am not putting my current job at risk. Another warning sign is that she poo poos my concerns even though, as I have stated to her I am in the position to know. I worked for this organization in the past though in another capacity I was able to see the people in this position.

4. Ultimately even if offered I don't think I would take the job. Currently one of my biggest issues is that my job involves my not being able to control my schedule and large swaths of time where I am away from the world. This job likely will be 8 hours of that -- all day long. It might be good pay an it might be close to where I live but, 8 hours a day with no internet or access to life? No.

5. My gut was screaming "no", "no", "no". The only reason I had considered it this far was other people.

6. I went to try on my suit and it was tight. Too tight. I have things that I need to work out for me right now. I need to lose weight, keep my health up... Money isn't everything. At the age of over 45 is not the time to be switching jobs for fun.

7. I originally applied due to the shut down and I feel like as of today the shut down will not happen and has all but the final nail in the coffin for a while.

8. IF I do want to move up and or do another job I should keep my eyes out for jobs *where I am*.

Now what do I tell my friend at work?