thanks SlumberKitty. I might try the book club idea.
According to some online directory, my local therapists are expensive, near 100$ per session; but i might be able to afford one session per month. I would've preferred weekly sessions, but I will take what I can get. With homicidal thoughts, I have to handle my mental health a bit more seriously.
I can try volunteering and other things that might indirectly get me social, though nobody's obligated to communicate with me. I need to be wary of the communities I choose to communicate within, as being rejected from communities negatively affects my health.