I'm so sorry, xmascarol Unfortunately anxiety can work like that. You always feel like something terrible is going to happen. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. Keep doing what you're doing. Keep yourself busy. Are you taking your meds? Do they help a bit? If not, perhaps you could talk to your Pdoc about this and see how it goes from there. I'm so sorry, I wish I've had more advice to give to you. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this