I'm so sorry you're struggling, BPIIHBU It sounds like you're going through a lot right now. Please don't give up. I agree with all the others. Talk to your Pdoc about this and see how it goes. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you, even if you're not taking meds at the moment. I'm so sorry, it must be very hard for you. I hope things will get better soon for you. We care about you. I'm so sorry, I wish I've had more advice to give to you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this