Yeah I feel the same way. That if I let people in and let them see me- theyll run away scared and everyone will be hurt.

But Ive been told that- and I do think this is true and makes sense- you cant have ANY relationships if you dont try. Even if it feels like you are always being hurt... not having relationships hurts too.

So keep trying is my advice. Im going to try harder too so you arent alone. I know how hard it can be but everyone deserves to have people in their lives. Very few people are awful enough to live a life of isolation- and you dont seem awful at all