First off I want to say I am new here, so I don't understand alot.. but I do know this is where I can go for support.. so, ok... Here goes. I recently got an apartment after being chronically homeless. I had 1 apartment 3 years ago, had to have my older kids live with Dad for a bit blah blah. Anyways so now I am in this new place my kids are home, I have had a couple more. I only found out 4 weeks ago after 1 year of therapy that i may be borderline, now I am waiting for new Dr to diagnose, and looking at my life and how I have been I think I do.. but here's my problem, and why I am here crying to you..... I would normally have been flipping out by now. Crying and all upset because my property manager here slept with my boyfriend 2 summers ago while we were broke up.. I don't think she knows that I know because I was gone for 5 months. But now she calls me all the time and always wants me to resign paperwork. She even gave me a lease violation for having a bag of recycling cans out back... She just called me again and asked me to come up with my newborns social security card or all my help will be revoked . Ugh. It's so annoying.. I ask my boyfriend what it's like for then to see eachother.. is there animosity, you guys friends, is it awkward? I want some transparency and all he gives me is, no we aren't friends, and he walks away.. so now I want to fight with my boyfriend, I want to call housing and blow up her spot...... I really just want to be able to think straight, and not fly off the handle.. I want to believe people..ugh I want to disappear.