He would say health before wealth
But then snigger. So I knew
It was disingenuous.
He would say:
Be a brain surgeon and snigger.
So as a kid I would wonder
Is he mocking my intelligence?
Is he saying I am not
As smart as everyone
Told him I was ?
When it was just the way he was.
Wound up in his own misery.
Of course all he did was lie.
He never came to
The hospital when
I was being born.
He was at home
Nothing in the world stopping him.
I never knew this
When my Granny passed away.
I had reasons why
I could not go
To the funeral.
It was not that
I simply did not wish to go.
I made a choice,
Before I knew about
Him not being at my birth.
It was right by a long shot.
Because of his
Ill health I was plagued
With guilt for calling
Him a terrible human being.
When he went back
To work he was even nastier.
He would sleep
On the chair if I visited
And condemn my job.
Call ME lazy and irresponsible.
Maybe I am naive
For saying he was
Not a nice person.