I understand what you mean, bluebycicle I agree that these two things aren't mutually exclusive. But I also agree with AspiringAuthor, sarahsweets and Tryingtobehappy5. You can still find some people you feel comfortable with and try to be friends. Of course it's not easy, especially if you have social anxiety. But it can be done. I'm so sorry you've been treated this way. You didn't deserve it all. Stay strong. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here for you to support you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this