I can relate to what you wrote, Jensitive22 I struggle with expectations as well. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. But we have to keep fighting and understand that we can only do our best. That's all we can do. It's not our fault. And please remember that you ARE worthy of love, just like everyone elese. Don't be so hard on yourself. You deserve to be loved. You're certainly loved here. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that we're here for you to support you. We all love you here.. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to everyone