Hey TLC. Just on the question of friends - cherish them buddy, whether you think they're there for you out of pity or what-have-you. Because the way I look at it is, they're there because they want to be there, in your company. But secondly, if all your friends were to go away for one year, two years, ten years, forever! - you might very well wish them all to come back - out of pity for you or for any reason.
Just something to think about, friend. Hugs!