You may have felt bored and now down because nothing has really changed (as evidenced by your husband's idiot comment on the kids accessing porn themselves). When we go through a process, it's nice to think we're getting somewhere, getting something "done". But you were already "divorced" (or at least separated) in your relationship and you're getting actually divorced now. It's like having a huge weight you're moving from "there" to "here" now, so what?

Maybe like with your T session last time where everything was humming along and you thought of termination, you now are beginning to think outside the divorce process box, outside moving the weight from one place to another.

What's next? You going back to school? Getting a job? Starting a business? You're going to be "free" soon of the weight moving business. Are you terrified or have a million dreams you hardly remember that you put on hold and have to re-access or what?