For my long episodes its a Slow process to hypo and then mania normally. Then I have an instant switch to even more extreme mania which consists of me making plans and an attempt within 6 to 12hrs. that lasts a few days but by then i have tried and ended up on the psych ward if I got caught before hurting myself or im in medical recovering and being watched 24/7 so I just spend the rest of those days being angry and telling everyone how bad i wanted to die and trying to find a way to do it in hospital. Then I usually cycle back and forth super fast for a few days followed by depresion that all of a sudden is just gone. Like ill be laying in bed and suddenly feel fine and get up like i was never depressed
For rapid cycling its all fairly quick switches but no full mania only hypo
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Bipolar 1
Borderline Personality Disorder
Alcohol Use Disorder
Meds:
Depakote
Welbutrin
Abilify
I didn't want any flowers, I only wanted
to lie with my hands turned up and be
utterly empty. How free it is,
you have no idea how free.
- Sylvia Plath
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