Things have been weird in my head I think from being tired/stressed. Got really anxious and spent 2 hours writing an email today haha. I did see another friend last night and listened to live music at a restaurant which was nice.

I was expecting to have my therapy appointment today, but my therapist had an emergency. I hope that it was nothing too serious.

I am feeling a bit resigned to my situation, that there are things I can do to keep myself somewhat stable, but that I will always be battling these thoughts and moods and my quality of life may not be great. I know I am not the only one, just having a hard time processing that right now. Something that does give me hope is that my siblings and I are all getting help for our mental health, and that we can better protect the next generation such as my niece/nephews by being healthier ourselves. There is mental illness back quite a few generations on both sides of my family so I hope we can break the cycle in these children, or at least get them earlier intervention for better outcomes.