I am taking my meds again I only skipped 4 nights. Thats not great of course but once I slip that much I usually cant get back on track. I started taking some of the night meds in the morning and some at lunch so I have much less to take at night. Its getting easier, I dont gag anymore and if I have taken some of the dose earlier in the day Im less likely to talk myself out of taking the rest at bedtime.

Also something awesome has happened. I usually dont feel like a good mom but my kids have started talking to me at bedtime. Maybe that sounds stupid but I have a hard time being patient at bedtime(or most of the time) and usually rush through it and even get angry if it takes too long. Im not the mom who does baths and stories before bed but this feels pretty great. I think the 5 minutes makes them feel special and they seem happy to get to tell me things and have all my attention.