To everyone who has responded thus far:

I am not ignoring you, I simply do not know what to say. Like I said - I am growing accustomed to what I say being "wrong". That is starting to happen when I respond to others as well.

Honestly though, this time - I just truly don't know what to say.

What does a person say when told it is okay to talk - after believing that for many years, only to be "beat down" by several in general society, not even just personal (though some personal as well). I mean .. what do you believe? What sense do you make of things? Not that I don't still try to communicate ... but I don't expect to be heard without anger resulting from the one I communicate to.

I just - don't believe communication is something people want from me. Not really. I'm more of a nice ornament or thought to have around than I am anything else.

Thank you all for the kind words and I apologize for my negative ones.

This is why people don't want me around I think. I simply am not what they want.