I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this, WarpedTrekker Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn some new ways to cope with your anxiety. It sounds like you're going through a lot. I'm so sorry, please don't give up. Just wanted to let you know that I'm here for you if you need to talk. I don't have a lot of advice to give, unfortunately, but I'm here to listen if you need it. I'm glad you're getting a bit better! Anxiety is hard to deal with. But it can be done. Keep fighting. Stay strong. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you