My dad has been sounding better this past week. He seems to have gotten past alcohol withdrawal and is actually going to and liking AA. I knew he would. That makes me very happy. I will visit him later this morning. He said he would drive to my house, but I told him I would go to his. I want to see his progress with my own eyes first.

Today will be busy since I need to go grocery shopping, some cleaning, and make some special things for Valentine's day. I'm glad that my mood/energy has been improving these past one and a half weeks, but often I "deflate" a little a night.

After years on disability dealing with major mood and other issues, I sometimes wonder how I used to manage working a full-time job and doing the rest of the stuff, too. And I never even had kids! At my best times in recent years, being a housewife, maybe taking one online college course, playing with/feeding/caring for my parrot, and a little internet stuff is the best I could manage. And I felt extremely productive at that time! I celebrate what I can do vs. feeling inadequate. Yes, I do want to push myself further, but I know from past experience that doing so too much and/or too fast becomes destabilizing.