I am feeling really low today. A job I thought was a shoe in has seemed to fall through. Been rejected from 5 other jobs. All the others seem to be taking an eternity to make up their mind. I canceled my internal EEO interview because all it would have done was tell them what I know so they can defend against the external one I am filing. I just wish I knew when they were planning on firing me so I can plan. I had a phone interview but I don’t think I will get the job. Plus it is only part time and I would have to travel. I feel very edgy and agitated and irritable. I could just fall asleep at my desk.

I feel like this is all a waste of time and that I am going to spend tons on a lawyer and not win.