What about finding a way to enjoy what is possible?

I've struggled with ED for much of my adult life. Yes, there came a time when I became so dysfunctional that I was grieving it as a major loss. Not so much losing something that I had in the past, but losing the potential to one day experience what I never had. I'm still grieving it to be honest, but I'm trying to enjoy what is still possible, which requires acceptance and letting go of what is no longer possible. Not an easy thing for me, but it is either that or completely detaching from a part of myself that still exists with its needs and desires. I don't want to detach from that.