I don't know your backstory, Innerzone, so unfortunately I don't have a lot of advice to give to you But yes, I do believe people can change. After all, that's why we're all here, right? We want to change. But I think it's wise to be careful. Lots of people say that they have changed, but it doesn't take long to understand that that's not true at all. And change doesn't happen overtime. Especially if it's related to substance abuse. It can take several years. I don't know how much time has passed, but I'd be very careful. Even just letting him into your life again would mean opening up a lot of previous scars again - and it would take even more time to get over them. Do you think it's worth it? Only you can answer that. It certainly wouldn't be easy. I'd suggest to just move on and start with someone else if you can. That's just my opinion, though. The final decision is up to you. I'm so sorry you've been through all of this, you didn't deserve it all. Please don't give up. I know it's hard. I admire your strength and will. I hope you'll feel better soon. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this