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Originally Posted by BirdDancer
My dad has been sounding better this past week. He seems to have gotten past alcohol withdrawal and is actually going to and liking AA. I knew he would. That makes me very happy. I will visit him later this morning. He said he would drive to my house, but I told him I would go to his. I want to see his progress with my own eyes first.
Today will be busy since I need to go grocery shopping, some cleaning, and make some special things for Valentine's day. I'm glad that my mood/energy has been improving these past one and a half weeks, but often I "deflate" a little a night.
After years on disability dealing with major mood and other issues, I sometimes wonder how I used to manage working a full-time job and doing the rest of the stuff, too. And I never even had kids! At my best times in recent years, being a housewife, maybe taking one online college course, playing with/feeding/caring for my parrot, and a little internet stuff is the best I could manage. And I felt extremely productive at that time! I celebrate what I can do vs. feeling inadequate. Yes, I do want to push myself further, but I know from past experience that doing so too much and/or too fast becomes destabilizing.
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I hear ya, in my 20s and early 30s I was working part time, going to college full time and raising my son. Got my associates degree and a a 2 yr computer degree. I worked just full time on and off then too. My moods were mainly hypo in the summer and horrible crushing depression in the winter. But both my degrees ransfered to the university here, and my goal was to get a masters in biology. But my back went out and had to have surgery, then a yr later my mom passed and then a yr later I went into a psychosis. I have only been on ssi for about 3 yrs. I'm on it more for my back than bp.
But I understand being able to do so much before and so little now bc of disabilities.
