I've lost any point to fight as I have none absolutely none. My life died 5 years ago after already suffering since teenager. The 5 years I heard the same stuff keep fighting.

For what I don't feel any enjoyment or ever feel content I hate been alive now. I'm dead inside I don't feel anything for anyone the guy I was has gone. That's not me. And I have no one just money sent to keep alive for them well f them.
They are the selfish ones keeping me alive but not around can't help or afford private care. All so they don't have to go through it me getting the hell out well it's time I do what I want and best for me