I'm so sorry, seeker33 It sounds like those are intrusive thougths. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard to deal with them. I get some obsessive thougths from time to time as well. It's not easy to control them. Have you tried writing them down when they happen? Maybe that could help. Keep fighting, you're stronger than them. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this