I'm so sorry, NotElleWoods You're definitely not alone in this, as this thread has already shown. And yes, sometimes it does feel like like the universe is out there to get us. But we have to keep fighting. We deserve a better future. We deserve to be happy. I agree with Mopey, life can be beautiful. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, please don't give up. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this