Not a fraud. Everyone who lived a depression, feel guilty or feel a fraud for not being able to get the energy enough. What in a head is going on, in a brain...has a big influency in the body. I’m not strange that on one side you want to get out of the depression but don’t feel the energy to do it so far.
Anyway, any step you give forward, it’s a big step but don’t feel guilty when you can’t give it. Bit by bit. Don’t feel shame. You didn’t call the depression. Noones wants this *****.