I always do. Its all the mental health professionals around me who have to remind and repeatedly shake me back into recognize that what I experience probably isnt what most people experience. I still dont 100% believe it but I do feel much calmer and less scared on medication. My mood is much more stable and I dont believe so many crazy things.

I still dont 100% believe I am... well that I cant somehow just figure out a way to magically fix myself. I just cant let go of that because in some measure I really do believe that maybe Im really just... fine and everyone else is wrong. Its kinda silly sounding but too important to dismiss as being silly TO ME.