I'm so sorry you're struggling, canopy I'm afraid I must agree with all the others. If he's truly depressed, I'm so sorry, but that's still not an excuse to behave the way he's behaving. He's being selfish and he doesn't seem to respect your opinion. You say that you want to help him, but please remember that you can only do so much to help. He's the one that has to get better and has to get through the hard work. The final decision is up to him, And you've already said that he refuses to get help and that he seems to blame it on you. I'd suggest to have a serious talk to him about this. Make him understand how much this is important for you. Make him undrstand that he needs to get help if he wants the relationship to get better. Hopefully he'll listen to what you have to say and understand you. If he still refuses to get help, I'm so sorry, but I think you need to seriously reconsider your relationship with him. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. You have to do what you feel like it's the best thing to do for yourself. Whathever you decide, we're here for you to support you. Stay strong, canopy. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this