We seem to be going through alot of similar stuff right now. I'm so sorry about the pain you've been through but so happy that you left and that you continue to keep on trying. you seem to be so on the right track and that job will come..i got lucky in the job dept, but i still don't have a home to call mine and my kids and the stress of living w/parents is almost as bad sometimes as the original stress of living w/abuser. but i'm going to keep on trying too don't hesitate to communicate whenever you need to GOOD LUCK!