Hi, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I know the feeling all too well. Have you ever thought about getting involved in something your interested in like taking arts and crafts, pottery or knitting classes if that is something you are interested in. You could meet friends there. I know there is a website called Meetup.com and you just put in your zip code and they have alot of groups of people that get together for different interests. We're here for you