I can feel emotions slightly. My soul doesn't. I don't want to exist anymore. Whatever happens when I die, I don't care. I feel like life is pointless and there's no point of living.

I know this sounds somewhat suicidal but it really isn't. It's my SOUL. I'm not depressed right now. I don't see the light (The spiritual light) and I can be a very spiritual person.

I've used my fair share of psychedelics. Psychedelic rock seems to be the only thing that makes me see. Music for tripping is truly meant for tripping. It has its own entity that makes the listener SEE.

All the things I think about, I wish just disappeared. I need a break. To sleep without dreams. I'm scared of dying because I don't want to leave people behind. I'm holding onto my ego. My ego seems to be all that I am. Worthless to me. I am really instead energy being a human.

This may pass if my heart doesn't stop because I have a fear of it stopping. But I care less about it stopping more than usual. I need a vacation or a break from my life. I need to relax. I'm relaxed more now that I've come home from work.

So many things are inspiring and magical but I don't care for them right now. My soul is apathetic to my hallucinated reality.

Peace, love, tranquility to all <3