I'm so sorry, cashart10 I understand what you mean. Not knowing what will happen or how long will it last is definitely scary. You're definitely not alone in this, as this thread has already shown. Your past history can give you some hints, but remember that there's no certainty! That could be both good and bad. You're still not sure, but that also means that things could be a lot better and that this episode will be short! Life can be unpredictable. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I know you're scared, but remember that things won't stay like this forever - they can and will get better! Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. I hope you'll feel better soon. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this