Lunatic soul:
Was it difficult for you to find a new therapist? Was it difficult to trust her and tell her about what happened with the male psychiatrist?

I had trouble finding and trusting a new therapist. I still have trouble trusting her.

My experiences were similar to what you describe here:

The psychiatrist tried to continue ‘therapy’ after he stopped the intimacies, too. But we could never return to the topics that brought me to therapy again. Therapy became about (mostly me) talking about the ‘relationship.’

It kills me he was paid by me and my insurances for all of these visits.
It kills me that he could have done *nothing* therapy-wise and that would have been tons better than what he elected to do.

He didn’t have to cure me. He could have done nothing. He could have just not HURT me.
Now I still have the issues that brought me to therapy plus the new traumas he gave me.