(((Fuzzy))) I've wondered the same. It isn't possible that the family of origin could hold so much hatred toward me, and for what reason?? You've become a caring, compassionate bear. I guess it could affect some people differently. I, for example, am VERY sensitive to the pain of others. Maybe I should thank my abusers for making me a better person. (Like THAT would ever happen )

If one person in the family of origin had the capacity to love, it would have only been a mind game for me. One minute they "love" you , the next they'd sooner see you dead. I guess it's a way of keeping you in a state of disequilibrium.