I'm glad you're going to see your therapist soon, Dnester! Yes, definitely talk to her about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully she will be able to help you. You could learn new ways to cope with these thougths. Just be honest and share everything that you're going through. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope you'll feel better soon. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this