Maybe can you have won past it? That doesn’t mean it was ever not real.

Did you intentionally on purpose purport this condition for deception purposes (porpoise (just had too))? Only a fraud would...and your sincerity and concern voices otherwise.

Thank you for expressing your feelings and concern...but you are not faking....I have felt the same too at times because from what I remember...it wasn’t all that bad of a childhood...and I can’t remember much, but a few good times and never the bad.
Besides, DID only happens to other people worst off then me...at least in my head it sounds good.

Maybe it’s time to reaccess your current mental state? Or do nothing and see where it goes?

I’m hoping that it gets easier and clearer for you. It’s really good hearing from you again.