I've had depression since 10 or 11, bipolar since 19. I'm in my mid twenties now. Today, I feel normal. Whatever that is. I started St. Johns Wort last week by suggestion of doc because I've tried most antidepressants and antipsychotics to no avail. I'm taking 1200 mg a day in divided doses. Over the past wk, I've gradually been feeling better. But today I don't feel revved up, but not sleepy either. No anxiety, been having good sleep. Feel focused. Almost like a calm and content feeling. I hope it's not just today, but today has been good. Not euphoric, but good. When you've felt normal, however long ago that was, did you just feel level?